eNiLedA’s bLog~

Looking back at what I have done for the past year. It started from a sudden invitation to Uncle Lim’s hill by one of my colleague. There was where I officially met him for the first time. It was not a clear meeting as I did not get along with strangers well. To me, every stranger remains as stranger and I would not take the initiative to get to know them. Things change ever since when he slowly approaches me and we became good friends. We spend nights hanging out together for dinner, movie bowling etc.. Life has been quite interesting as I do not have to spend my nights at home, lazing at the sofa in front of the square tv. GSC 1U, GSC Mid Valley, 1U bowling, Cineleisure, Pasta Zanmai, Sakae Sushi, Dragon I, Pavilion KL has always been the places that we use to hang out together. There are so many trips that we went together and we enjoyed each other’s company, I suppose.

When someone treats you really good, you tend to feel appreciated and loved at the same time. He is more than a buddy to me. A person that I can rely on to tell my sorrows, a person that cheers me up when I was down, a person that drives me out and treats me dinner when I am not feeling good. There is so much that has been done for me and I really was thinking, how nice if this will last forever. Things which are not meant to be will not remain as not meant to be. Things that I have all this while is somehow just an illusion that I was too blind to see, too foolish to believe that it will just lead me to the black hole. I wish I just could restart everything again from the beginning and purely take it easily as something that I shall not ponder and always keep waiting. I am just too simple to be true.

It is now over and all I hate that it ended up this way. Now, I am totally lost of what I should do, can you please give me some light? I do hope I can see you again any second sooner and regain the happy go lucky life soon.

There are times in life when we just sit down and keep on wondering why

Things are not put into place

Things are not the way we want it to be

Things are always at advantage of others

Things are just not right for us

Those things are just not right for what it is

All things happen for a reason

At that point of time, it may not seem to appear right

But because of our blurred thinking

We think that it’s not right and grasp at it

Learn to accept facts

Learn to do what the best you can

Learn to give more

Learn to expect less

Learn to let go

Learn to go forward

Do not cling on something for too long

Do not just sit there and keep on wondering why

Why is this thing not like this?

Why is this thing not like that?

Keep on wondering why

Makes us stagnant at that point

It prevents us from moving forward

Moving towards the better

Moving towards our goals

Do what you want

Dream what you want to dream

Go where you want to go

Be what you want to be

Do things that make your heart smile

Because is takes only a smile to

Make a dark day turns bright

Do not go for surface; they can be deceiving

Do not go for wealth; even that fades away

Go for something that your heart tells you to

And with enough determination and courage

You will succeed…

If you think you can, you can!

The rock…

It may be just a simple piece of thing

As simple as it can be

That not many have noticed its existence

Or any that think that it is special

But no matter what

There is someone that thinks that

It is really special…

It was put right in front

For a certain period of time

Until that someone notices it existence

It listens to the sorrows

It shares all the pains

It cares for the being

It shares all the joy

The laughter, the jokes

Its there for you

Most of the time

It makes the other

A person that really looks

Into the next minute of life

The person…

Handles the rock

As if it is a

Gold that drops down from the sky

The person

Puts the rock in front

Priority always goes to the rock first

No matter how much difficulty

There is a free heart

To sacrifice and to

Give more and more…

Now that the rock

Make its choice to be far away

Far away from the being

It was as if it went to another world

It no longer cares or bothers

The other person

It categorize it as a nightmare

And wouldn’t want to repeat it

Again in future

The being tried to search everywhere

Hoping to find the precious

Just a simple hope

To meet back the rock

At the same old point

Back into the past

Just being itself

Not showing ignorance

Just being a simple old friend

That is by your side

Just like part of your family

That cares for you

As simple as the rock can be

It all depends on

How it rates this friendship

And values what it has received

In the past…

Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder.

This is a proverb that all of us have known all these while. Even though a particular thing can be beautiful to this individual, it may not be beautiful to another. But have we ever wondered why humans are always into beautiful things?

When we are young, we accept everything that we have because we do not have the ability to differentiate between what is beautiful and what is not. Slowly as we grow, we were influenced by our surroundings and humans tend to choose things that they themselves think that it is beautiful.

However, children that are brought up in the non-wealthy family usually do not have that much opportunity to choose things as they wish to. As compared to those that are born in the more wealthy ones, there is a vast difference in the way of upbringing. Children in poorer families are usually been brought up with minimal things around them. They do not have the choice to choose more beautiful toys as those are the more expensive things to buy. Hence, these children will tend to accept whatever that they have as long as they have the equal fun as other children. Children brought up in this way will tend to appreciate more about things around them. A beautiful thing to them is just something that people can buy with more money.

Children in the wealthy family tend to be more fortunate than those in the poor ones. They are generally more pampered with gifts and toys and this indirectly creates a mindset in them that they will choose for the better things which are usually more beautiful and proper.

Humans are more reluctant to accept things that are not so beautiful. Why is that so? I also sometimes wonder. This issue has been in my mind for a while and I tried to search for the answer. Recently I realized that beautiful things are not permanent. Things that are beautiful at this moment or period of time may not be the same way as it is years later. As things are constantly changing, there is nothing in particular that can be the same all de time. Let’s say that we choose something that is beautiful at this point of time. But does it mean that we will not abandon that thing when it is not beautiful anymore?

What I really realize is that no human being wants to be not beautiful. It is the fact that we ourselves can’t change sometimes. Does it mean that if your child is not beautiful, you will not love them? It is the mindset and perception that one has to change towards how they judge things. Do not judge a book by its cover. Go for more values and search for the things that are not seen on the surface. Beauty is just at skin deep level. I would like to conclude that the most beautiful thing in the world cannot be seen nor touched…but are felt in the heart. Do not judge things through your eyes but try to feel things with your true heart and you will definitely find that it is the right thing that you are seeking for which really makes you appreciate it more than you think you would. This is the real thing that is really beautiful!

I guess there is an ending to everything

Of how things started

It remains for a while

And there it goes off

 

There is excitement

There is hope

There is eagerness

There is thought

There is joke

There is laughter

There is joy

There is feeling

There is everything

 

Everything seems to be so perfect

Everything seems to be wonderful

Everything seems to be falling into place

Everything seems to be the way I always want it to be

 

But…

There is no permanence in everything

The concern, the closeness,

Everything that bonds you

Will slowly fade away

As time passes by

 

Because…

There are too many things that she has done

Too much willingness to give

Willing to give all she can

Without expecting anything in return

There is too much that she thinks

Too much that she is willing to give

Too much that she is willing to sacrifice

 

She felt happy

She felt satisfied

She felt that all she has done is worth it

 

But what did she get back in return?

Nothing…because

She’s ain’t important

And whatever that matters

Is ain’t important anymore~

Sharing what we have

is a beautiful way of relating

to others.

Our friendships are much

enhanced by the quality

of generosity.

Even more significantly,

the cultivation of non-greed

becomes a strong force for

liberation.

What keeps us bound

is desire and grasping

in our own minds.

As we practice giving

we learn to let go.

LET GO

of our

pre-conceived ideas

of how things are,

of how we would like

things to be.

LETTING GO

of the

attachment

to our cherished

opinions.

LET GO

of

views,

opinions and

ideas of all things

and the light

will be

revealed.

Sometimes I really wonder why people can live so happily without worries. That’s the lesson I learn from the show ‘Life Made Simple’. Everything is so simple to a guy name ‘Ah Wong’. This new 32 episodes of ‘Ah Wong’ is really a good story of how a simple guy manage to touch the hearts of the people around him. His simple main motive in life is to make everyone around him to be happy. The most touching part is that he can make his half brother, Michael and half mother to accept him. What is the most successful thing that he had achieved? This is for you to find out.

Well, life made simple is what we should seek for…J

Just a short wish for
everyone:
Happy Chinese New Year 2006 for the coming New Year 2006!

May everyone be
well and happy this coming New Year.

Cheers,

enileda13

Empty… Feeling of
emptiness surrounds me.

Frustrated … Can’t
everything be a little simpler?

Tired … Life is
terribly a long journey to go.

Complicated … Am I
looking into things too complicatedly?

Directionless … Do I
have directions in my life?

 

What I am feeling
right now may be applicable to everyone when life’s seems complicated and
packed with many things. Have we ever wondered what the cause of those negative
feelings?

 

Sometimes, we tend to
be too busy attending to matters in life that we are unaware to take care of
what we feel deep inside … the heart. We can be very hardworking and produces
tones of work but not feeling happy inside. If only I could be rich! That’s
what everyone would like to be. Should there be so many rich people in this
world, but they are not happy with their lives.

 

Everything is a
misconception. We always think that if I am rich, I will be happy. If ever work
is not as stressful as the condition now, I will be happy. When we are too
free, we will think of being busy so that times passes quickly and does not
halt at the particular hour.

 

No matter how hard
life will be, we still have to carry on. Nobody will stop and wait for you.
Every second ticks by. Shall there be any bad feelings in life, we should stop
down and think for the moment. Relax ourselves and move on. It is those that
are strong enough and willing to deal with problems that will be successful in
life.

 

Always keep in mind
that if there are no sad or bad feelings, there will be happy one awaiting you….

Saturday
26 Nov 05